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Saturday, June 30, 2007

regrets

hmm,
as i read through my previous entries
and my loyal book called a diary
ive realised ive done so many mistakes
so many things that i said and did out of anger
that at this very moment i dont really mean it

#1
the words i uttered
the tonation(sp) i used
they were so uncalled for
something that i could have avoided

then again,
there were things i said
that perhaps maybe i did mean it then
that at the moment it was the most appropriate thing to say

but as i look back on yesterdays,
i truly regret it
it's like i wish i cold turn back time
change the things ive said
erase the memories ive left
un-break the hearts ive broken
the hurts ive caused

but then again
perhaps maybe im just asking for a another chance
to be able to make things right again
yeah perhaps it'll tke time
loads of time
a very long time

would you guys give me a chance
to retrace my path and
correct all thats wrong

im sorry
if sound very depressed
cause im not
its just that i was giving this some thought
and i just wantd to make things right.
thats all..

#7
what is it that you want me to do?
everything i do is wrong
tell you and youre not happy bout it
dont tell you bout it and you say im hiding things from you
so what is it that you want me to do
okay so i say things that yo prolly dont wanna know bout
but you could atleast pretended like you cared
that you would actually listen to me even if our conversation wasnt productive??

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Thursday, June 28, 2007

words

words.
theyre a wonderful bunch
put it a sentence and it conveys an emotion
some may be good
some may be bad
some may cause
anger
hurt
irritation
and much more

it can make you happy and sad
surprised or dissappointed
or sometimes even confused

or how bout its tryin to hide a truth??
does it really cover it up?
or lead on to another emotion???

emotions
sometimes we use words to hide emotions
sometimes its done intentionally
or at time for the benefits of others

oh wells..

anyways, wish me luck for my test tmr.
first time yo.
kinda nervous.
ahahah!

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Monday, June 25, 2007

thoughts

hey all.
its a monday
everyone starts school
and for the first time i feel pretty empty at home
no one's around
its just me and the tv and my ciggarettes

anyways,
things have changed
i have changed
i try changing for the benefit of others
then again would this be me
or would the old me be me?

i try to fit in
i try to meet with ur demands
but please dont make it seem like i dont care
like i dont bother to make sure youre okay
im sorry if i fail at times
or that i dont reach ur expectations
im sorry that i dont have a perfect past
im sorry i screwed up like shit
but i seriously dont think that talkin bout it time and time again is gonna help any of us

yes i know truth hurts
and reality bites
i say it all the time
i see happening always
but i guess once in a while we've gotta look over it

i once passed a blog that said something like
we shouldnt be living in the present yet still having thoughts of the past
cause that way we'd never move on
we'll constantly think bout it that it'll kill us sooner or later
yes the memories, it stays
yes the pain, it lingers
yes the emotions, it occurs once in while

ive come to the final bend
i no longer know what to do or say
i try to cover it up over and over again
not to mention anything
but still certain things that happen might spark you to think bout it
theres really nothing i can do then

am i giving up
just letting things be the way they are?
or am i just gonna keep it in till one day i might just explode

yes it hurts to see the pain
the words
the actions
its all been said and done
i cant turn back time
i apologise
but what is it that you want me to do

those words that comes out frm the mouth
the body language that comes with it
it hits me hard
just so yawl know
but knowin where i stand,
~~i'll just take it in~~

[see past my flaws and all]

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Thursday, June 07, 2007

When I first saw you, I saw love
And the first time you touched me, I felt love
And after all this time, you're still the one I love)

Looks like we made it
Look how far we've come my baby
We might've took the long way
We knew we'd get there some day
They said "I'll bet they'll never make it"
But just look at us holding on
We're still together, still going strong
(You're still the one)
You're still the one I run to
The one that I belong to
You're still the one I want for life
(You're still the one)
You're still the one that I love
The only one I dream of
You're still the one I kiss goodnight

Ain't nothing better
We beat the odds together
I'm glad we didn't listen
Look at what we would be missing
They said "I'll bet they'll never make it"
But just look at us holding on
We're still together, still going strong
(You're still the one)
You're still the one I run to
The one that I belong to
You're still the one I want for life
(You're still the one)
You're still the one that I love
The only one I dream of
You're still the one I kiss goodnight
You're still the one
(You're still the one)
You're still the one I run to
The one that I belong to
You're still the one I want for life
(You're still the one)
You're still the one that I love
The only one I dream of
You're still the one I kiss goodnight
I'm so glad we made it
Look how far we've come my baby

hey,
i know i know
i really need to update regularly
but ive been really busy please..
and plus,
projects and projects and more projects

im suppossedly doin my research by the way
just so you know.
haahah!

anyways.
ive really gotta do some research mann.
HAH!
bye all.

JOEY: im missing you too dawg. when ya heading back huh? ive not spoken to you for like damn long la.
hahaha. when are you coming back.? iw as just readin ur blog. the rat's wicked sick yaw! but quite cool la. how come they dint have rats when we were doin bio in IJ.? all we had were onions and some heart. HAH!!! oh wells, call me soon please. thank you very much. i love you joey!

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